Old TV... A Woman's Bible!

I try to watch Sex & the City (cancelled 2004) at least once a week simply because in 80% of the episodes... I can relate! This show documents 4 women between the ages of 25 & 40 dealing with single life, dating & sex in Manhattan; I find it strange that a 17 year old girl in Cobourg can relate. I just watched an episode about a 'fuck buddy, a man a girl runs back to every time she ends just to have mindless sex & forget about the last guy; I CAN RELATE! Another, features a woman that has a problem with the way her man’s ‘junk’ is… displayed; for his sake I won’t explain exactly the problem but I CAN RELATE!
Modern television spends too much time on special effects & hot men to let the audience relate to the story; how do they expect me to relate to 2 very attractive, demon hunting brothers or a sexy, bisexual, doctor with Huntington’s Disease? Modern media makes relation a lot more difficult; in shows from the late 80’s & early 90’s were the easiest to relate to. People relate to shows like Seinfeld, 4 friends sitting around talking about nothing; or Friends, a group of friends with relationship and friendship issues. Sex & the City is the biggest one for women. Relationships are what builds life; whether the be in love or friendship. It has actually helped me become this sex goddess (lmfao!), good friend & great girlfriend I am. It has also helped me put a relationship behind me that I thought I could never let go. I am a woman in love & I plan on staying that way.

Words of Love & Pure Romance

Okay, I am just full of opinions today and this is one I have to get this one right out in the open. I am so tired of hear people groan about their ex love or crush. IF THEY DON'T LIKE YOU, GET THE FUCK OVER IT!!!! I'll admit I'm guilty of it but I'm not guilty of doing it for months and months and months. I have so many friends that just complain about their ex being the one for them or their crush is the love of their life. Or when you're dating someone for 2 days, you’re in love and you'll be together forever... usually those are the relationships that last 2 weeks or less. Usually these are the people that 'go out' with someone just for the sake of saying they have a bf/gf. It's pathetic and sad. I admit again that I'm guilty of it. It's usually 6, 7, 8 & 9th graders and it's cute then but in the 11th & 12th grades, it's just really annoying. What makes me laugh about these is the breakup; the one dumped is so heartbroken the go all depressed and shit; all I ever say to these people is: you're being a retard, how long did u guys date? 2 weeks. GET THE FUCK OVER IT!!! lmao!

I am the Warrior!

I am in a group of friends where most people are socially awkward (as I used to be) and like I used to be these people are venerable in relationships because they like the attention and affection. I used to be a lot like this but I was tired of being stepped on and hurt; some of my friends don't realize that they're being stepped on and if I warn them I seem to be a know-it-all or just a plain bitch. I've decided to warn the assholes/bitches that decide to fuck with them because they wanna get some and they know they'll get it because these people are emotionally weak. There are 2 girls in particular that keep fucking with my friends (going through em' pretty fuckin quickly) and if these bitches fuck with one more of my friends I will personally fuck them up. I am a good friend and I am VERY protective of my friends. I suggest to those people looking for a quick fix to find someone else... my friends deserve better than you.

A Rose by Any Other Name...

Friends and family tell me to ignore it; eventually the cruelness will subside when they get bored. They call me cruel hurtful names so here's what I'm gonna do; I am gonna define most of the names I've been called and tall you whether or not they are correct or incorrect:

Cunt: A synonym for a woman's genitalia, vagina, pussy, etc.
So, his is clear, I have a cunt but I am not one

Slut: Refers to a sexually promiscuous person, usually female
I am not promiscuous; promiscuity comes from having MANY sexual partners.

Dirty Bitch: A woman who loves to be fucked in all holes. A bitch that enjoys having sex in every position imaginable, usually with two or more partners.
There are so many things wrong with that, I've lost count.

Skank: Derogatory term for a (usually younger) female, implying trashiness or tackiness, lower-class status, poor hygiene, flakiness, and a scrawny, pockmarked sort of ugliness. May also imply promiscuity, but not necessarily.
I may have low status but my hygiene is superb, I'm not a flake, nor am I scrawny.

Whore: A woman who sleeps with you for something in exchange, usually money.
I have never in my life exchanged sex for money or anything else in that matter.

Dyke (my personal favourite): Derogatory term used to refer to a lesbian; commonly towards a lesbian with more masculine physical characteristics/mannerisms; Offensive to many people.
Why should I take offence to this? I am not a homosexual and mostly ex boyfriends call me this.

Dirt: used as a label for a person that is low on the social ladder, either because of unfettered promiscuity, poor personal hygiene, or any other indicator of social status
Okay, I'll take this one. I am low on the social ladder but not for the reasons listed. I would never sell my soul to be on their social ladder.

After 7 Weeks at Blackdown

Well... this is the longest 7 weeks of my life. I was at Blackdown Cadet Summer Training Centre as a seargent in India Company. I loved the job but it was long, stressful, tiring & totally worth it. I worked in 35 plt as 2 sect. sgt.

I worked under WO. Claudio Abreu; Claudio was a good guy but totally new to what was needed in his role. I spent all summer babying him and reminding him that the kids were 12 and he couldn't say 'fuck' every other word.

Jacob Bos was my fellow section sgt and my Blackdown brother; there were too many times he saved my ass. There was one time I flipped on Claudio and if Jacob hadn't have been there I would've smacked Claudio and lost my job. Jacob and I were a dream team, we worked all summer togther and were so helpful to eachother. I love Jake and I miss him like mad.

Alexander Borgers was he guys I was interested in at the beginning of camp. He was a strange boy and I thought he was sweet but I was mistaken. A great friends but waaaaay too different to be anything more :p

James Wakelim was litterally my BEST friend at Blackdown, we had so much in common and if he wasn't there I probably would've taken a personal. Everyone kept saying there was a romantic chemestry and we thought they were crazy; we were best friends and being anything more was nuts. In the last week we discovered that maybe there was more. I feel for that boy and he seems to really care for me. It's 3 hrs. from Moorefield to Cobourg but if he wants to make the drive... I'm not stopping him.

These were great weeks spent at Blackdown, I made friends and I fell in love. I can't wait for next year,

Shush Girl... Shut your lips! Do the Helen Keller and Talk With Your Hips

Good Morning! This has been a day of epiphany; I am discovering quickly that today's teens are so worried about being non-conformist that non-conformity has become a conformist action! Everyone is the same and there is nothing anyone can do about it! I realize my title makes NO sense but it was the phrase on my mind but also a great example of conformity; Don't Trust Me is a horrible and stupid song and so many people like it that I'm disgusted. I try so hard to be non-conformist I practically battle myself to hate things I somewhat like. Some examples:

1. American Eagle Clothing Brand; the clothes are over-priced and brand their name EVERYWHERE but they are kinda cute

2. Twilight Books & Movies; yes, stupid but I gathered some entertainment. I say I would rather remove my face than watch the movie but it's not THAT bad (but still STUPID!)

3. Rhianna- Singer; though annoying her music is catchy and danceable.

So those are some examples of my own 'non-conformity'. In all of my blog entries I point out my own flaws but I find so many people that can't do that.

The Many Relationships of a Heartless High Schooler

Grade 9
1. A friend's guy's friend lol worst mistake of my life. This guy was a controlling, uptight asshole that would openly shove his godamn tongue down my throat in private but wouldn't even hold my hand in public. Cheated on me again, and again and dumped me when he didn't get laid; need I say more?
Duration: 3 mos.

2. A lifeless drone who's tongue was down my throat and hands were firmly on my ass for the full duration of our relationship. We went on one date and that was to 'see' a shitty movie.
Duration: 2 weeks

3. A sweet sensitie guy. Not bad on the eyes either ;). If he hadn't fallin in love with his best friend! This is the best friend that convinced him I cheated and ended our relatonship; only to ask me out 2 hrs. later.
Duration: 4 mos.

Grade 10
1. Sweet, kind and COMPLETELY ANNOYING!! He didn't know how to get angry (even when I cheated on him); it drove me BANANAS! I ended this because I felt guilty.
Duration: 3 mos.

2. It all started wih a car.... our relationship started wih sex and ended the same way. We dated until he took off after meeting my mother. Coward... we continued having sex for months after but hid it from everyone. This relationship was completely stupid.
Duration: 2 weeks Sexual Duration: 3 mos.

3. (Repeat of Gr. 10 # 1) We tried again but there was just no way it was gonna work. He was too nice and I was overwhelmed because I was still sleeping w/ #2.
Duration: 1 mo.

4. The strangest relationship I have ever encountered! We were so happy for the 1st few months but then he got clingy... REALLY clingy. He was always attatched to me. The relationship became all about the physical stuff. I was finished.
Duration: 9 mos.

Grade 11
1. A ginger kid with NO SOUL!!! He was so great for a couple weeks but slowly the relationship was nothing. I was a booty call. He ended it and it broke me. I fell for the old him; I didn't see what he had become unil it was too late. I hated myself.
Duration: 1 mo.

2. (Repeat of Grade 10 #4) Even more clingy!!!! Drove me completely crazy!!
Duration: 2 weeks

3. (Repeat Grade 10 #1 & 3) We tried again and things went really well until the relationship got in the way of my cadet career. I love cadets and I did care for him but I put 4 yrs. into cadets and I wasn't losing that for some High School boyfriend
Duration: 4 mos. (ended today)

The Road I Walk Is Long but It Leads to a Good End.

Life is both bitter and cold (like many of my friends); you can never turn back the clock or take back the things you say. I am not a person that wants to turn back the clock; I do what I want to do because I live one life and I intend to live my life to it's fullest. I make my decisions based solely on what makes me happy and a lot of the time my friends can't accept that. I have only 2 true friends that are there NO MATTER WHAT; she will always be there through anything while loving me like a sister and he gives me the advice I need, when I need it without making me feel lousy. I wonder why the world hates me so, then I figure it out. I am real! They can't face the fact that I am living my own life and I do it independently. I don't need a guy or anyone else to make me feel like a person; I am my own woman and my other 'friend' seems to like to forget that. He consistantly tries to make me feel like a low down scumbag and I am so tired of his bullshit I could puke. I used to admire his honesty but know I am tired of his judgementa; bullshit. To judge a person is human nature but to constantly voice and opinion that NO ONE asks for is just obnoxious and attention seeking. He tries so hard to be accpeted it's almost pathetic; I'm not accepted and I admit I try but I don't make everyone I love feel like shit to prove it. I've fallen for quite the guy this time; he's sweet and caring but now I'm being judged for liking someone. I love being the different woman I am and I love the woman that I will one day become; even if no one else does.

We Are No Longer a God Fearing Race

In the old days bible was law, there was no way around it, now it's a joke. We laugh at the wrath of a 'god' and I am not a god fearer; looking at society we were better off fearing god. When we fear god we avoided the deadly sins (and then some); lust, gluttony, greed, sloth, wrath, envy and pride.

In this general note, I'm not talking about catholics or christians, I am talking about the comman asshole in modern High School norms. When this world was god fearing it was a better place; people knew their place. They thought that if they did a bad thing they would be going straight to hell. I am an aithiest and I will be for the rest of my life. I was not raised to fear or even believe in god and I pay the price. I was not raised to believe that the 7 deadly sins

Nowadays suicide is all the craze EVERYBODY has to make an attempt; did anyone actually think that maybe some people sincerly want to die?! Suicide is a joke to these people and this utterly disguts me; my ex boyfriend threatens me with suicide every day and there ares some points where I wish he'd get it over with but the reality is: HE WILL NEVER DO IT! I do not wish death on him but he is driving me crazy!!

The world is a cruel place and it will never again be cleansed of the bad people we have all become.

Teenagers - The Flaws of My Kind

Though it's odd; I live in a world like every other typical teenager. Teenagers are all the same, we can argue non-conformity as much as we want, we're all the same people. Gossip is every teen's #1 concern; as if we all care who is fucking each other. We all want the next juicy gossip, many of my friends are prime example of this, I always wonder which of my friends will date the other tomorrow. Gossip starts to fit slowly into the harsh reality that ALL teens talk shit about each other, no living human being can say that they have never said anything negative about someone without their knowledge; we love to do it until it happens to us. I will be 1st to say that I am a guilty party, I often gossip and talk a lot of shit, but I don't sit around and act like I don't. Teens will never admit our own hypocrisy; we all judge each other for things we've either done or thought of doing. Every day my friend tell me not to talk shit about people but that friend talks shit more that ANYONE.
Subtlety is in short supply with teens and we sometimes couldn't care less; I know about 50 people that will openly discuss their sex life as if it has no effect on them. Sex is no longer a sensitive subject in modern life, it is a ploy in a teen's game to get to the top of the 'food chain', it works every time. The higher your 'nookie number' the better you are supposed to be. My number is 4 and nowadays I'm considered freaking Mother Teresa compared to the average modern teenager (According to MSNBC, the US average is 10.3 people) . We're not afraid anymore, with the availability of contraceptives and abortion, teens have become fully desensitised to sex and it's a disgusting thing. Again, I am a guilty party, I joke about sex ALL THE TIME and disrespect it's meaning of love and affection.
Love (HA!), we have taken the true meaning of that word and flushed it down the (metaphorical) toilet. Love used to be a true word and now it's used as a mating call for the teenage male to the teenage female. I have used i but I still use it for it's true meaning; I want it to tell someone that they mean alot to me and I want to be with them forever.

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